Showing posts with label yoga. Show all posts
Showing posts with label yoga. Show all posts

Thursday, 12 November 2015

Advancing Asana Practice



Do you remember your first yoga class? Or even those first few months or years of yoga practice? As cliché as it may sound, I guess I would describe it as the beginning of a journey of discovery. Feeling your body in a different way- in fact feeling every part of your body- some parts that you never even knew existed!

In modern life, we are so accustomed to external stimuli that going inwards feels like a trip to a far away planet, but one that is most beautiful, & one that you absolutely fall in love with. And of course, like all love affairs, it’s a roller coaster ride with many highs and some lows- where we take stock, ask questions, reevaluate our aspirations.

I feel like yoga practice is very much like a romantic relationship- you have the honeymoon period, a period of really getting to know each other; the beautiful and the not so beautiful and then a ripening that is so sweet when you know each other so well that you know how to support each other’s happiness. So in our yoga practice, we have that initial discovery- we literally fall in love with ourselves (not an ego thing, but also lets not use that word like it’s the devil himself) Following that, there is that realization – “my body is so this and that”, but equally, “wow! My body is so strong and amazing”, etc. And then (after some YEARS) you get to know it so well, you know how you feel, how to make yourself feel better, how to move like a rock star!


But like all romantic love, this is not the moment to stop growing and learning, because we are always changing. If we stop putting the effort into our relationship, it is likely that we will lose that space of happiness and contentment. Contentment is not a place of non-activity. Rather, it a place you have found that you are happy to be in, but to remain there, you have to put in the work. The work may change. To remain feeling content does not necessarily mean doing the same thing over and over again. This works for some people but not everyone. So what works for you? You will know if you are doing the right thing for yourself but evaluating if you are feeling that same joy.    

For me, this is what advancing my practice is about. Although I have practiced for many years, I have discovered that the practice never stops revealing connections to my body and inner self. Through my practice, I am experiencing change every day. This is both very powerful and humbling. Let me make it clear though, that I am not experiencing these things just from advance poses. I feel the change in my warrior 2 all the time.

But whilst feeling the change in poses that I am familiar with keep me grounded in my body, advancing my practice continues to help me break barriers that cause me to move from my contentment spot. Advancing my practice is not about doing advance poses. It is about doing that thing you did when you first walked into a yoga class – remember how scary that was? And equally how empowering that experience was? Very soon, you were not afraid to walk into any yoga studio in the world. That is what it is all about – breaking barriers that we unconsciously create every day.

If you have been practicing for a while, do not be afraid to walk into your first level 2-3 class. And if you found after that it was not for you, at least you gave it a try, or you will never know. It is not as hard or as crazy as you think and it is ok to leave it for another day if it was not right. There is no ego and there is no judgement. 

Tuesday, 13 May 2014

The Joy of Togetherness

It is hard to believe that this is now the second week since I left the studio and the work that I had become so familiar with. I am slowly getting into this new rhythm of not really having to be anywhere at any time (ie: not working!) To be honest, I find myself quite much busier than when I was working, but it is different, not having to run after time! My final class at the studio was perfect. It was in sync with the theme for the week, which was about the joy of togetherness- the beauty of the kula. Here it is for those who missed it...

What is the kula?
Kula in sanskrit directly translates as community. It is also derived from another sanskrit word 'kula siddhi' and is the idea that all creation in the universe is connected and is in a relationship with each other, no matter how diverse. These connections are why the universe continues to expand. 
Simply, a kula is us- a group of people with similar interest, similar passions, beliefs, values, who come together to share in this love and to grow together.

Every time you come to your shala, your sangha, your club, you meet your kula. In our yoga class, a few things happens....
You roll out your mat and you greet your little universe, the manifestation of your life..
You meet each other, a connection happens
You start your practice and you start to meet your challenges, your tendencies, sometimes, your demons. Some days there is laughter, other days frustration, some days are flat, some days are illuminating. Whatever it is, you share an experience. Some days you are laughing together, some days laughing at each other and sometimes, you exchange a look that needs no words, because it is understood. And sometimes, the person besides you stops and watches you and starts to root for you and cheers your awesomeness! And other times, they your frustration and it feels better already!
This is the kula
The more diverse the group, the stronger the community.
It is there to support you and remind you of your awesomeness, of your beauty. There may be someone in the kula who believes in you more than you believe in yourself or vice versa. It is a place that makes you feel good. A place that you can go to when you have had a rubbish day, to soak in the spirit of the kula, that leaves you feeling better most of the time, even if just in a small way.
This is the joy of togetherness.
And if you have happiness, share it. Share it in the kula and beyond; 
your wealth, your possessions, your time, music, art, knowledge; 
share it because it is not possible to be happy alone

namaskar
thank you for 7 amazing (yoga) years 

Tuesday, 26 November 2013

beginners mind


We had someone new joining us in our little intimate late session last night. She was not new to yoga but new to class as she has been practicing through DVD's at home. We played with a few vinyasa krama's, getting into Bakasana, Salamba Sirsasana 2 (tripod headstand) and Urdhva Dhanurasana. After trying each pose, she would look up, wide eyed and say 'wow!!'
It wasn't a "wow, that pose is great" but more a "wow, I am fab! I can still do that!"
:-)
We have all been there- 
when we realise we could still do something- or do it at all.
If only we continue to remember how 'wow' we are, long after those things become 'easy' or 'normal' to us.

Remember, you are 'wow'! 

Wednesday, 2 October 2013

comfort zones

Comfort zones just creep into our lives without invitation and without prejudice. It takes a hold of us and starts to build this fear fence around us! It's gripping! 

I've noticed in the last couple of years how I seem to have developed more concrete ideas about what I like & dislike and find myself in these gripping comfort zones! I find myself reluctant to try new things or explore workshops that offer new perspectives especially! And I know now that it is out of fear. And anyone who knows me will tell you that this is completely out of character of me!! 

Recently, I attended Ana Forrest's workshop. I signed up for it because my friends were going to be there (to cut a long story short) I had signed up for her firts visit to the u.k. but it did not run as she had become ill. So it wasn't something I had not considered before. I did not read anything about it; just signed up. A couple of days before the retreat, I received a email inviting me to choose the workshops I had wanted to do. How peculiar that those words caused me to cringe & contract! I thought "oh my word! What is this?? But...I had paid, so let's just get on with it and if I really hate it, I can skip the second day" Even writing this makes me laugh & makes me quite annoyed that I should have even thought those things! At this workshop, I received wisdom that was new to me, wisdom that had been forgotten to me & an experience that blew my heart open. Imagine if I had missed it because some words made me insecure! Because it was something unfamiliar to me! Imagine what I would have lost out on! It would have also been lost to all whom I had shared this with immediately after. Wow...
The irony of it all is that in the previous year, I felt the same about another teacher, Rod Stryker's workshop, that turned out to be one of the most powerful yoga intensive I had ever experienced!

I've come to realise this:
In the last couple of years, I have developed comfort zones that I feel really uncomfortable, or unwilling to get outside of. I don't want to say stuck - this is all new so I am still working it out. It's as if when I turned 40, a crazy switch got turned on and now I have to be so aware of this crazy space that I am in. 

I am in Crete on a retreat at the moment- writing this. I am still not afraid to come to yoga retreats alone at least. But..phht yoga retreats are the best places to go on holiday if you have no one to travel with. You always meet great people and you will always feel included and safe. I recommend yoga rocks here in Crete. So anyway. What I did have to do is drive myself from the airport here. Left hand drive and all. Let me tell you, I get lost even following a sat nav! And of course, I got lost....& broke my side view mirror! Aaarrrggghhhh!! But- I got here I could have taken a cab but the idea of driving on my own got me so scared I just had to do it. It never used to scare me, so it had to be done. I'm glad I did it. Whatever. The point is, it sounds so silly- but it is exactly these silly things that easily builds up into bothersome big things. 

How mad that as I purportedly gain wisdom, I lose courage? That as I seemingly gain knowledge, my mind should narrow! That with all this amazing life experiences, I should choose not to experience anything new!? Thank you yoga for giving me the insight to at least be aware of this so that I may work on it. And here I am bathing in beauty, nurtured by the sounds of crashing waves as i share this with you. Something unlikely if this fear fence just got too big! 



 



Monday, 18 March 2013

not so early yogi

early birds

he he he
o.k. maybe I gave that impression, so I apologise if I did.
I do not wake up at the crack of dawn to practice. I am a terrible morning person! It has always been so. I wake up at 7:30 and if not, get woken up at 7:45. It takes me some time to get out of bed- a bit like my dog... it takes a few stretches and some dialogue with my brain before I roll out of bed. I also like getting up when my husband has gone. He is a morning person and is very hyper in the morning. His quick movements in the morning disturbs me LOL. I am on my mat at around 8 and do a few sun salutations and stretch out my hips and back; they normally feel tight in the morning (actually, everything feels tight in the morning for me- like wood!) . I don't stay long- breakfast beckons. Practice for me really happens in the afternoon. Most days, at 3pm. If I have clients scheduled, then practice happens at 8 in the morning and I only get the one session in. 

I am often asked how long I practice. The thing is, I have stopped imposing time on my practice. Some days, I can go on for 2 hours or so and some days, barely make one. There used to be a time when my time on my mat was all about how much time I spend on it and what I achieve on it physically. I would set targets and will push at a pose every day until I get it or it gets me! Then inevitably, there came a time when I did not enjoy my practice anymore and did less and less of it. I have managed now to let go of that kind of gripping and reaching. Practice is much more about space now and can report that I look forward to be on my mat every day. If you want to take anything from this experience, I would say to you, 'enjoy your practice'. To sustain a regular self practice and more importantly, to be able to receive the beautiful gifts of the practice, you have to enjoy it. Surrender the reaching and gripping, trust the practice, and all will come eventually. 

Having said all that, I go on about morning practice because I love getting up at the crack of dawn to practice. When I am on holiday, I look forward to this. It feels great and the whole day that follows is just great. It is a wee bit challenging on a work day for me to do this. I get back at 9:30pm at the earliest and it would take me some time to wind down. It all sounds like an excuse really because this week, I have had to get to bed early and have been waking up at a glorious 05:30 to get some practice time in before heading out to the wonderful yogi's at 07:00. I miss my night time reading but I love it! It feels great! Even the dog has been delighted to see me this early (and I can tell you, he is no morning bird either!) There is always a way if there is a will...

So anyway....my dear yogin friends, no, I do not wake up at dawn to practice. Maybe I will keep at this now that it is also getting light quite early. I really recommend it ;-)


we love zzzzz's in the morning


Wednesday, 13 February 2013

Sthira - Sukham

स्थिरसुखमासनम् 
sthira-sukham-āsanam
sthira (strong, steady, stable) sukham (comfortable, easeful, joyful) asanam (asana, posture)
The practice of yoga should be steady, stable as well as comfortable
-Patanjali, Yoga Sutra 2.46
I remember a time when not much of my practice was sthira or sukham! When i first stepped onto a yoga mat, i could barely sit upright, and my ego and competitiveness would just push and push and push. I think sukham was missing for many years of it. I loved it even then, in all it's un-sukham-ness! But wow! Once it had found me, how incredible did it feel??

It took some time for me to realise that this practice is a journey of un-determined, if not indefinite, time. So it is expected that it will take time to find sthira, sukham. I notice often how frustrated people get with themselves and even how discouraged they become when they try a pose and fall, or wobble or just did not get it. I have been there myself. When i demonstrate* poses in class sometimes and maybe it looks so sthira and sukham, I hope they hear my words that it took years to get here and many years to come in transforming my yoga practice- in my body and in my mind. And really...not finding this (sthira, sukham) right away is a great gift of the practice. When the body is wobbly, the mind becomes so much more focused and starts to understand that the sthira and sukham actually starts from within, not from the physical body, from from deep inside.


* This is also why I hardly demonstrate in class unless necessary. 
I hope it does not come across as laziness hahaha. 


So anyway... never be discouraged. If the person next to you is stable as a statue, remember that they too once flapped their arms, fell on their faces and their bottoms and struggled with all the internal dialogue, and that one day, you will also get there, to a place that feels sthira and sukham.

Enjoy your journey! <3


Thursday, 6 December 2012

Sweetness of Practice



 
Today is day 5 of my current visit home to Malaysia. The way things worked out this time (eg: I was on a night flight for the first time ever), I started my trip with a weird jetlag. I would be up by 04.00 & made an early decision to pop into the Mysore ashtanga sessions till my clock sorted itself out. Of course, the practice itself put my clock on track within the 2nd day. However, I have stuck to the practice. 

I stopped (regular) ashtanga practice after discovering vinyasa flow. I was struggling with it so much & when I got into the vinyasa practice, I felt like a whole new happy world was revealed to me. I was a asana yogi at this time. I am pretty sure my teachers then explained that the yoga starts when the crap comes, but I heard nothing. All I felt was my tight body, all I understood were my limitations & my ego played up every day when I was not allowed to continue into the sequence. 

Today has been like one of those 'eureka' days. I started to recall all those things this morning, probably because I started to feel them again! But I have learnt some things since then and saw the opportunity I had missed back then to deal with those things. I guess that is just how the journey of practice flows, except that these days, there are many more teachers out there, many more combined experiences & many more avenues to share and receive these teachings so that we may miss less opportunities. (Awesome stuff!)

Anyway, in this Ashtanga practice, I am not very far off where I left it last! Lol It is not surprising since, in my own practice, I tend to leave the things that I do not enjoy & have been fortunate that they do not come up in class often! (Especially Marichayasana D) Fixed practices are great for me- I know I am not great at making myself work through the difficult stuff. And really, I know better, life is not just about the good stuff. The sweetness of life is made up of the great stuff and the tough stuff. Today, it was clear to me what has been missing from my practice. Don't get me wrong, I do do the tough stuff...but only the ones I like (*laughs*) The thing about fixed sequences is the repetition. Learning to "fail" every day until you succeed is a great practice in itself! 

All the yoga practices begin when the challenges begin. The practice of yama, niyama, asana, pranayama, pratyhara, dharana, samadhi begins. The sweetness begins...

Namaste

Monday, 24 September 2012

Mantra's


One of my favourite practice is reciting mantra's (preferably with a group of people) or singing kirtan. Whilst I have sung at school choirs and plays, singing is not my forte. For this reason, I never ever thought I would enjoy kirtan but after my first experience, I was hooked! 

I grew up reciting sutra's. As a kid, I never questioned them. It was like a competition of who could remember more and recite it faster. One of the punishments my brother and I often received when we have been disobedient was reciting the mantra Om Mane Padme Hum. We would have to sit infront of the alter and finish a round of the mala beads if not more. Mala beads remind me of those days (fondly) 


Why are mantra's "powerful" or special? The vibration of these words and these composition of words is the reason. It is like 'AUM'. If you chant AUM in class, you know that "feeling" and that is one (but very special) vibration. Everything vibrates - including all of our cells. All these sounds, they just enliven our vibration! 

Here are some of the (yoga) one's I have collected.  

Peace Mantra's

OM sahana vavatu sahana bhunattu
saha viryam karawavahai
tejasvinavaditamastu
maa vidvishavahai
om shanti shanti shanti

together may we be protected together may we be nourished
together may we work with great energy
may our journey together be brilliant and effective
may there be no bad feelings between us


OM
sarveshaam svastir bhavatu,
sarveshaam shaantir bhavatu

sarveshaam poornam bhavatu,
sarveshaam mangalam bhavatu

sarve bhavantu sukhinah,
sarve santu niraamayaah

sarve bhadraani pashyantu,
maa kashchidh dukh bhaag-bhavet

om shanti shanti shanti

Let it be so ordained (bhavatu), that all the people (sarveshaam), experience well-being (svastir) ; let all the people experience peace or tranquility (shaantir). Let all the people experience wholeness and completeness (poornam) ; let them experience prosperity and auspiciousness (mangalam).
May it so happen (bhavantu) that everyone (sarve) receives happiness (sukhinah) ; let them all be saint-like (-santu) and be without disease and in good health (niraamayaah). Let them see with their own eyes (-pashyantu) the goodness of life (bhadaraani) ; And let them not (maa) contemplate in their conscious mind (kashchidh) any sorrow inducing (dukh) thoughts while they remain beneficiaries (bhavet) of good fortune (bhaag).


Lokah samastha sukhino bhavanthu

May all beings everywhere be happy and free and may my thoughts, words and actions, contribute in some way to that happiness and freedom for all



Other Mantra's mostly for learning 


Guru Satyam
Guru Jnanam
Guru Anandam
Guru Shanti

My or the teacher is truth
My teaher is knowledge
My teacher is bliss
My teacher is peace


Guru Brahma
Guru Vishnu
Guru Devo Maheshwarah
Guru Saakshaat Para-Brahma
Tasmai Shri Guruve Namah

Brahma = Supreme cosmic spirit. God of creation
Vishnu – Creator & destoyer of all existence. God of Sustenance
Eshwara – Lord of the heart
(brahma-vishnu-eshwara trinity- the 3 guna’- satva, rajas, tamas)
Guru is Shiva, Guru is the absolute Brahman incarnate.
My salutation to such a Guru who is verily the supreme one

OM

Asatoma Sadgamaya Tamasoma jyothir gamaya
Mrutyorma amruthan gamaya            

Lead me from falsehood to truth
Lead me from darkness to light
Lead me from death to immortality


OM 
Saha Naavavatu, Saha Nau Bhunaktu
Saha Viryam Karawavahai 
Tejasvinaavadhitamastu
Maa Vidvishaavahai
Om snati shanti shanti

May that protect us, both teacher & pupil
Together may we be nourished
Together may we work with great energy to find the truth
May we never quarrel 

OM Namah Shivāya Gurave
Satchidānanda Mūrtaye
Nishprapanchāya Shāntaya
Nirālambāya Tejase

I offer myself to the Light, the Auspicious One,
who is the True Teacher within and without,
Who assumes the forms of Reality, Consciousness, and Bliss,
Who is never absent and full of peace
Independent in existence, the vital essence of illumination

Maha Mrityunjaya Mantra
great death-conquering mantra

Om Tryambakam Yajamahe
Sugandhim Pushtivardhanam
Urvarukamiva Bandhanam
Mrityor Mukshiya Mamritat

We meditate on you, third eyed one (Shiva) who is full of sweet fragrance and who nourishes human beings. Free us from disease, bondage and death

I once found this translation that made us all giggle:
May he liberate me from bondage, even as the cucumber is severed from the vine.


Surya Mantra’s

These are the 12 salutations to the sun 
If i remember right, this interpretation is from Shiva Rea

Om mitraya namah                     Salutation to the friend of all
Om ravave namah                      Salutation to the shining one
Om suryaya namah                    Salutation to he who induces activity
Om bhabave namah                  Salutation to he who illumines
Om khagaya namah                  Salutation to the one who moves through the sky
Om pusne namah                      Salutation to the giver of strength and nourishment
Om hirayagarbhaya namah      Salutation to the golden cosmic self
Om marichaye namah              Salutation to the rays of the sun
Om adityaya namah                 Salutation to the cosmic mother
Om savitre namah                    Salutation to the stimulating power of the sun
Om arkaya namah                    Salutation to he who is fit to be praised
Om bhaskaraya namah           Salutation to the illuminator


Ashtanga Mantra

Vande Gurunam Charanavinde
Sandarashita Svatma Sukhava Bodhe
Nishrayasa Jamgalikaya Mane
Samsara Halahala Mohasantiye
Abahu Purusharkaram
Sanka Chakrasi Darinam
Sahasra Shirasam Swetnam
Paranamani Patanjalim

I bow to the two lotus feet of the Guru's
which awaken insight into the happiness of pure being
which are the complete absoorption into joym the jungle pjysician
eliminating  the delusion caused by the poison of conditioned existence

I prostrate before the sage Patajali, who has thousands of radiant white heads
who has, as far as his arms, assumed a human form
holding a conch shell, a wheel and a sword
to him, i prostrate

Swasti Praja Bhyaha Pari Pala Yantam
Nya Yena Margena Mahi Mahishala
Go Brahmanebehyaha Shubhamastu Nityam
Lokhaa Samatha Sukhino Bhavanthu
OM

May prosperity be glorified
May the world be ruled with law and justice
May divinity and knowledge be protected
May all beings everywhere be happy and free 



note:

The spelling of the sanskrit words often vary. Translations vary a lot due to the beauty and complexity of the language (ie: it can seldom be translated directly, if at all) It is helpful as well to understand some philosophy, in order to understand some of the mantra's. I am not yet the person to translate these and may never be, as I am not well learned in the subject so these translations here have been from various sources accumulated over the years <3