Some days, I feel so challenged by my job. When I decided to teach yoga, I never thought it would change my life in so many ways; especially the way see myself...
A friend asked, "why do we feel we have to train so much"...
It is a mad world...
The job makes you question yourself a lot
Here are a few thought patterns...
"OMG did I say the right thing? Was that actually right??"
-checks books, refers website, consults teachers... and then even after all that, checks again..
"Oh man, that was not good / That did not feel right"
- goes and practice
"They are not getting any better, I am not doing something"
-checks books, refers website, consults teachers... and then even after all that, checks again..
"They are amazing!! I need to keep up if I want to keep serving them"
- increase practice, does more training, workshops, classes etc
"what did she just say??" "maksikanagasana" wt...
- goes and studies asana index again
"man! words are not flowing out of the mouth today"
- sulks
"Can't do that! Can't do that! Can't do that!"
- ponders... decides it's not important one day, decides it is the next - depending on who's training or workshop just attended
"fibula, tibia, ulna, radius...psoas..where is it again?? S.I, T-bands...arrgghhh"
- studies more anatomy
"chakra? yes yes, I can name the seven, no i don't know how to cleanse them and i cannot tell if they are blocked"
-......
"yayy full class tonight!"
- delighted smirking
"so few in class today. I suck"
-panics
Attends a class "wow! she is amazing! am i like that? I don't think so..."
- worries
Hahaha
I love my job. It is a constant challenge to believe in myself, trust what I know and to trust the universe <3
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